“My Love, My Life, My Sister”



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This is the poem that my daughter wrote for me for my last birthday. We celebrated life that almost wasn’t – mine. And remembered the person that no one on this planet ever got to meet. I am alive because of the choice of a “fetus.” She chose to push me out of the way, to the top of the womb, where God wrapped His very presence around me and hid me. And I survived. I know that my twin sister Leanne is among that “great  cloud of witnesses” of Hebrews 12:1, and I know I will meet her in heaven some day. But for now, I want to share the beauty that is her that was revealed to my daughter in this poem.

My Love, My Life, My Sister

by Angel LaPoint on August 08, 2012

Those of us who write anything: poems, songs, stories, know that sometimes God wants us to write something specific. No matter what time it is. I got this at around 3 am. It is a poem from my mother’s twin sister to my mother. For those of you who don’t know, my mother found out at the beginning of this year that her mother tried to abort her, and succeeded in aborting her twin sister. This poem is from God and my aunt but it was written down by me. There is no way I could have written this on my own.

I could have changed the world. I know I would have changed yours.

I could have been a singer, a dancer, an actress.

I could have simply been a mother, a sister, a wife.

I could have been anything I wanted; but I never got the chance.

My life was taken from me before I had the chance to live it; but you survived.

I knew I was going to die, even though I didn’t want to.

I knew I had a choice to save you or to take you with me.

I pushed you out of the way, to safety, to God’s arms.

Our mother took my life; I couldn’t let her take yours.

One of us had to live to fulfill all God has planned.

My choice was made for me, you can still make yours.

Go my love, my sister, my twin; go and live the life you choose to live.

The life I never got.

I will always be with you, watching you, happy.

We will meet again, someday, and when that day comes, nothing and no one can separate us.

RISE UP!! O Woman of God!

Originally written August 26, 2011

“She rises up while it is yet night” – Prov. 31:15. How many sermons have been preached about this sweet domestic woman who gets up out of bed before the rooster crows to cook and clean and be a good housewife? How many night owls have felt condemnation from the typical understanding of this verse (and its companion verse in vs. 18 “her candle goeth not out by night”)?  I know I have wrestled long and hard with this.


Until one night when I was hugely pregnant with my 3rd child (my 10 lb 4oz chunk!), and I was up late because I couldn’t sleep.  I was reading my study Bible, the one that has an actual lexicon in the back.  I started looking up the words in Prov. 31 to see what the words mean in the original Hebrew language. And I was TOTALLY blown away!!!

For those of you who don’t know, the Hebrew language, the original language, is a picturelanguage; in other words, they draw pictures with the language to communicate a message. This is opposed to the Greek language of the New Testament which is a very precise language. It says exactly what it means. If there was a more precise word to use for communicating a message, they would have used it – no room for ambiguity.  But the Hebrew language is a beautiful language that teaches and expresses things by drawing a picture in our minds.

So, the first word I looked up was “night.” And it can mean a literal night. But being a picture language, that same word can also mean “a time of trial and temptation,” even as we would say in English “the dark night of the soul.”  So next I looked up “candle.”  And yes, it can mean a literal candle or light. But it also means “trust and confidence in God”! So her candle goes out at night can mean she stays up all night canning vegetables and sewing clothes and working, or, equally valid, it can say that her faith and trust in God does not stop in those hard times of trial and temptation!

Then, and here is the best part to me. You’re not going to believe how powerful this is!  In Proverbs 31:15, she rises up while it is yet night. She gets up out of bed? NO!!!!  “Rises up” is a WARFARE term!  It is used of the armies of David rising up against their enemies. It is used to say “Rise up, O Judge of the earth” in Ps. 94:2.  It is a POWERFUL word, with the idea of rising up in the natural or in the spirit prepared for battle, prepared to win! This is the only time in Scripture that it is translated to mean a wimpy getting out of bed in the morning. That is NOT what it is talking about at all. The Proverbs 31 woman who was a woman of God who would see adversity coming, against her home, her family, her nation, and she would become bold in her prayers. She would rise up in the spirit in those times of difficulty and intercede before the throne of Almighty God for Him to help and intervene! She gave “meat” to her household – the meat of the Word, the meat of what God showed her in prayer, and she gave “portions” to her maidens, to her friends around her, because there was so much overflow of the power and anointing and the truth of God that she was able to bless others around her and give into their lives as well.

The Proverbs 31 woman was a mighty woman of God, strong in intercession, who loved God with all her heart, and knew how to rise up in the spirit to see God move in a mighty way in the circumstances around her!

So as you pray today, in times of difficulty and darkness, may you RISE UP in authority and boldness, and get ahold of the throne of God as you pour out your heart to the One Person who can change nations, who can turn the heart of a judge, who can redeem us from the snare of the enemy. May you be encouraged and strengthened!


Terri LaPoint

Pro-Life AND Pro-Birth Freedom: Compatible Concepts


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As we watch the current events unfold in the abortion debate, I have felt the need to revisit this topic with a piece I posted some time back on Facebook. I believe that it is valid to question the validity of supporting choices of women in childbirth while opposing the choice to abort. Is there a conflict in supporting freedom of choice in some arenas while opposing “choice” when it comes to abortion? Here is why I believe that it is consistent to hold to a pro-life position at the same time one espouses the position that women have the right to choose where and with whom they birth:

Some have wondered how I can be pro-birth freedom and pro-life at the same time. In other words, how can I justify supporting mothers’ choices in birth unless I also support their choices regarding abortion. And at first glance, it may seem inconsistent. But I don’t believe that it is, and here is why.

When I talk about Birth Freedom, I talk about the God-given, unalienable, Constitutional right to freedom or liberty, and to life.  An unalienable right is not an arbitrary right that someone made up, like, say, the right to eat cream-filled doughnuts every morning, or the right to play video games.  An unalienable right is one that government did not confer, and therefore, government cannot LEGITIMATELY take away.  It is one that is inherent in humanity, like the right to digest your food.  That is something that will happen with or without government approval. Unalienable rights are those common to the human condition.  The Declaration of Independence and the Constitution secure these rights, but they did not give them to us.  As the founding fathers recognized, these are rights derived from God, as they stated in the Declaration:  “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.”

Birth Freedom falls under the Right to Life and Liberty.  Under the Right to Life, a birthing mother faces a maternal mortality rate in the United States that is more than double what it was just 20 years ago.  Our maternal mortality rate stands at the time of this writing at #49, rock bottom of the industrialized nations. And our infant mortality rate is only slightly better – an abysmal #42.  All of this is on the watch of the doctors and hospitals.  Every VALID study that has ever been done on midwives and homebirth has found the rates to be at least equal to, and most, better than hospital rates.  And a mother’s chances of having an unnecessary c-section have  greatly increased, bringing with it the increased risk of death or morbidity from the cesarean.  Both homebirth and hospital birth carry their own set of risks.  The essence of freedom demands that the choice of which risks to take, when the life of her and her baby hang in the balance, is the mother’s and no one else’s.  And thus this falls under her Right to Life.

Under the Right to Liberty, a mother has the right to make choices regarding her freedom of movement.  In many hospital births, it is not uncommon for a mother to be compelled to stay in bed, though she is not sick.  For her to be refused food and drink, and even hardened criminals are afforded more liberty than she!  For her to be cut or her most private places to be violated, even if she refuses.  For her to be compelled to submit to procedures that can cause severe trauma for years to come.  It is her Right to Liberty to stay in her own home with someone SHE trusts and do something her body was designed to do.  Brain surgery must be done in the hospital, but birth is something that a woman can do anywhere.  Even if she is deep in the woods with no one else around, and her time comes, birth will happen, with or without assistance.  It is the way the female body was designed.  The Right to Liberty is the right to do what her body will do anyway.

Birth Freedom, the right to birth where and with whom one chooses, is about choice, but it is about the right to choose life and liberty.  This right comes from God, and has been secured by the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution, and my hope is that it will be further secured by state governments that will recognize this fact.

A pro-life or anti-abortion stance is consistent with this view, because the baby in the womb has the God-given, Constitutional, unalienable right to life as well, because he/she is a person from the moment of conception with the ability to make choices, to remember, to discern tastes, to respond to external stimuli, to feel pain, and so on.  My years of study of psychology and of midwifery and birth have borne this out, as well as my own memories from the womb.  Many prominent people in the birth world have testified to the importance of the prenatal period upon the person in the womb.  Dr. Michel Odent, Dr. David Chamberlain, Dr. Thomas Verney, Joseph Chilton Pierce, Suzanne Arms, Karen Strange, and Mama Hug Barbara Stevens all have made profound contributions to our understanding of what babies feel, know, remember, and are capable of in the womb.  Though I do not know, and cannot speak to, their stance on abortion, their works support the concept of the personhood of the pre-born baby. I know that the baby in the womb is capable of choosing life.  The decision to end his or her life does not belong to anyone else, just as the decision to end the life of a mother does not belong to anyone else.

There is the fear of some, as well as the overreach of some, to extend the baby’s Right to Life to include the right to health, to a perfect womb environment, to be free from any potential harm that the mother may cause by her lifestyle.  There are actually cases where women have been jailed for making unpopular decisions, and this certainly takes it too far.  We don’t need nanny government to protect us from every real or imagined threat or harm. Life just doesn’t work that way. The way to avoid such extremes is to remember where the foundation of the Right to Life came from.  It is the unalienable, God-given right, common to all humans, secured by the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution.  The Right to Life is exactly that, no more, no less.

There is the belief among some that to be pro-life is to be anti-woman, and I want to address that as well.  Just as I am an ardent supporter of truly informed choice for birthing mothers in regards to things like cesareans, inductions, epidurals, and so on, I have recently recognized that there is a desperate need for truly informed choice about abortion.  There has been almost a black-out of information reaching the public about the effects of abortion, and women “choose” without having a clue what the ramifications are.  Because abortion is legal, it is considered safe. But Cytotec and cesareans are also legal.   Would you call them “safe”?  Just as no one told me of the myriad of side effects and complications that could arise from my epidural, women are entering abortion facilities with just as much blind faith as I had in my epidural.  No one tells them that many women will show up soon in the local emergency room from things like hemorrhage, perforated uterus, nicked bowels, or even incomplete abortion.  No one tells them that they could die.  Or that it often hurts terribly.  They don’t know that their chances of being rendered infertile or of having breast cancer or having a subsequent baby be born prematurely are increased.  They believe that the abortion will “fix” the problem, but they don’t realize that their problems are just beginning.  Depression, suicide, anorexia, bulimia, alcohol abuse, and drug abuse have all been associated with post-abortive women at a higher rate than those who have not had an abortion.  Nightmares, numbness, and mental illness increase.  Borderline Personality Disorder is seen most often in women who have had abortions.  And for those abortions done to save a relationship, the relationship statistically will end in less than a year.  Women are often manipulated and coerced into an abortion by a boyfriend, husband, parents, or even doctor.  Often, it wasn’t even THEIR choice!  These are the stories that we are just beginning to talk about.  

A woman in a desperate situation, with hormones and emotions raging, is extremely vulnerable to pressure from an “expert,” and she may wind up making a choice she never wanted to make, and that choice may haunt her for the rest of her life! Let’s compare her desperation to a man trying to jump off of a bridge.  Do we fight for his right to jump?  Do we hold rallies campaigning for legislation to help him be free to jump?  Of course not.  But as a culture we all see the harm in his jumping, even though technically he always has the right to choose.  The problem is that we are so focused on the right to choose that we fail to acknowledge or communicate the harm TO THE MOTHER that her choice can cause.  Because the focus is on her right, we fail to do everything we can to give her other options and support her in her unbelievably difficult circumstance.  But just as TRULY helping the man wanting to jump involves encouraging him as a person, empathizing with his heartache, and offering to help him face the problems that are driving him to his desperate choice, we can BE THERE for the mother wrestling with abortion, encouraging, empathizing, and offering real hep in dealing with the pregnancy.  Pro-life feminist Frederica Mathewes-Green wrote: “No woman wants an abortion as she wants an ice cream cone or a Porsche.  She wants an abortion as an animal caught in a trap wants to gnaw off it own leg.  Abortion is a tragic attempt to escape a desperate situation by an act of violence and self-loss. Abortion is not a sign that women are free, but a sign that they are desperate.” And I, as an advocate for mamas and babies, believe that women have a right to hear these things, to truly be informed about the choices she is considering.  That is the heart of being pro-woman.  Withholding information or pushing woman into choices she really is not ready to make, to me, is actually what is anti-woman.

And so I say that the reason that I can be both pro-Birth Freedom and Pro-Life is because the foundation for both is the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution, and before that, from the nature of the Creator. They are not incompatible concepts. They are quite consistent with each other.

Less than Human?

As we wrap up our Independence Day weekend, I am reflecting on some of the wonderful events and principles that our nation was founded upon. Coinciding with noble ideas and extraordinary principles, however, have been some of the darkest notions of men’s hearts.  More than a century and a half ago, Frederick Douglass spoke of what the 4th of July meant to a slave. We had very embittered battles over the concept of one person owning another, and the slaves themselves were not even considered people by some. Those concepts are so utterly foreign and preposterous to us today, to think that some would justify brutality and slavery and argue that the person standing in front of them was less than human. How awful! How revolting a concept!

Yet today, lines are once again drawn in the sand, and people are again arguing over the lives of fellow human beings, with one side arguing that they are not human and belong to another person, and therefore that person has the right to determine whether the other lives or dies. Brutality is justified.

Will history look back on our time and wonder how in the world our generation can justify abortion, just as we look back and wonder how in the world a previous generation could justify slavery? Or how the Nazis could justify the Holocaust?

Abuse and destruction of fellow human life is somehow justified in the minds of some if we can somehow say that the human life is not actually human. They did it with the slaves, and now they are doing it with babies. The baby in the womb, who is capable of communication, intention, memory, and feeling pain, is called a “blob of tissue,” “a clump of cells,” “a fetus,” – all terms that make the person seem less than human. Ugly names were used for the slaves that made them seem less than human. These are ways of distancing from the reality that is set before us. It wasn’t ok 150 years ago, and it’s not ok now.

The battle is so similar, it’s scary. Do you see it?

Surviving Twin Perspective


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A question came across my Newsfeed today, asking if you found out that you were pregnant with twins, but only wanted one baby, would you abort. I am in a unique position to answer that question, and I REMEMBER some of the events in the womb, including the abortion that took my twin sister Leanne’s life. Here is my response that I wrote. I pray that the parents will keep BOTH babies.
I am a surviving twin. My twin sister was aborted, but my life was miraculously saved because they didn’t know about me and they missed me. I found out about all this about a year and 1/2 ago, and I have grieved and cried more tears over the loss of my twin than I have over the fact that my mother tried to abort me. I sense her loss so keenly. I am the only person who ever knew her, but I DID know her. We were connected as only twins are.

Though I only found out about all this on a conscious level recently, I have “known” on some level my whole life. I have spent my life trying to figure out what the “deep dark secret” was that I have ALWAYS sensed, but could never put my finger on. The surviving twin will know, on some level, that his or her twin was killed, and it will profoundly impact their entire life, even if you never tell them the truth. I am speaking from experience. Now that I know the truth, I can look back on literally hundreds of things, events, behaviors, fears, etc, and see that they are all rooted in the abortion that killed my twin sister.

So my counsel to the parents would be, please keep both twins. If you abort one, you would literally be destroying something inside the surviving twin that can never be recovered. They are both there for a reason, and they matter! It may seem difficult now, but they will be worth it in the end. They are part of each other. I still cry for her, and the song from the Titanic movie, “My Heart Will Go On” is my song that I sing for her. “You are safe in my heart and my heart will go on.” Please let both babies live.

Babies Remember – Part 3



“Life begins at conception,” asserts Dr. Thomas R. Verney, Prenatal and Perinatal Psychologist. He bases this assertion on more than 30 years of scientific study and research. He is the author of the groundbreaking book, “The Secret Life of the Unborn Child.” Babies in the womb are capable of SO much more than we have ever given them credit for. Verney asserts that we have underestimated their capabilities. The mind of the baby even in the womb is absolutely amazing!  I highly recommend the film “What Babies Want.”  The mind is present and capable of memory from the moment of conception. “When people have recalled what happened, very, very, even at the earliest, at conception, in the prenatal period of birth, their level of recall, what they talk about goes beyond what they have the brain support to remember,” Wendy Anne McCarty, PhD.

Watch http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nl1zi_mjzIs especially beginning at 4:50 and following. This film clip show that a set of twins often played a game through a curtain. This was the same game that they had learned and played in the womb as early as 20 weeks gestation. How do we know that they had played this game in the womb? They had filmed the babies through ultrasound, and they followed their behavior through pregnancy and early childhood.

Next is this powerful story of the impact of the separation of mother and baby on the baby. The child remembered very accurately the setting of the birth. Start at 7:40 on this clip http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JcmBIY-VJN8  (Note: earlier in the video there are some graphic birth pictures, so if you don’t want to see those, skip to the point at 7:40 and watch to the end of the clip.) There is a profound effect on baby when baby is separated from mother at birth, even if it is for valid medical reasons (often it is not.) But every thing that happens in and around the birth has an impact on baby, whether negative or positive. And as the clip shows, babies can actually remember all of it.

It is not so difficult for us to conceive of a person being able to recall a traumatic event in early childhood, especially if there is something that triggers the recall of that memory. Why then is it hard for us to believe that it is possible to remember events before birth? We are a spirit and soul, completely intact and whole, at conception. Our body grows and develops; our spirit and soul mature. But early events can leave an indelible impact on the person, whether positive, in love and bonding, or negative, in rejection and wounding.  Even Hollywood recognizes this, as we can see in this clip from Kung Fu Panda 2, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Qj6ZaC7ocE when something happens that brings up the whole memory of Po losing his mother as a baby panda. This is a fictional story with a powerful truth. “Your story may not have such a happy beginning, but that doesn’t make you who you are. It is the REST of your story – who you CHOOSE to be.”

The early wounds and events do impact us tremendously, and they are real. To get free, we must recognize and acknowledge them. But the wonderful thing is that we do not have to let those events define us. We can find healing through Christ Jesus, and allow those things that were intended for our harm to be used as doorways to triumph and victory. Genesis 50:20 – “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.”

How Can We Move On?



What can we do to overcome painful experiences, things that never should have happened, that threaten to imprison our very souls in darkness and fear? How do we move on?

Mark 7:15 (NIV) says, “Nothing outside a person can defile them by going into them. Rather, it is what comes out of a person that defiles them.” I remember the freedom that came when I first learned this principle – I am not determined by the things that happen TO me! Our circumstances do not have to define us! They can, and often do. BUT, we have a choice. It is our response that determines how something will affect us. We often have no control over the things that happen to us. And some of those things are truly awful, and should never happen to ANY body, much less to you – a treasure, so very loved by the Creator. But the reality is that that bad things do happen. And many times they are not our fault. But even if they are, there is still hope.

“To open eyes that are blind, to free captives from prison, and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness” (Isaiah 42:7) – that is part of what Jesus came to do. So many times the wounds of the past have us blinded or imprisoned. We may feel like we are trapped in a prison of pain. But Jesus purchased our freedom on the cross.

So how do we get there, to that place of freedom? We are saved, go to church, read our Bibles. And yet still we may feel isolated by the pain, and nothing reaches it. “Search me, O God, and know my ways.” We need revelation of where the root is. Then we can go back to that place of pain and let God come and heal that place. Sometimes we need someone in flesh and blood to talk to, to pray with us, to let us cry, or yell – to acknowledge the hurt, the grief, the anger, whatever was there that we buried and pushed down, trying to hide from the pain. Let God’s presence wash over you. He was there too. He knows and understands the hurt. We go to the hottest part of the fire, to that place of the most intense pain, and feel what we feel, so that we can get past it. Until we go to that place and admit it, we will never get free.

And then here is the cool part –   we can get a “do-over” of our response! Remember the verse at the beginning, that it is what comes OUT of us that defiles us? When we responded in the natural way to pain – with anger, rejection, believing the lie of the enemy, shutting down and shutting out – it is THOSE responses that we normally have that hold us in the trap and the pain. But the response that leads to freedom is what we have to CHOOSE to make; it’s not the response that comes naturally, but it is the response that leads us out of the prison. What is that response? Giving thanks. And forgiveness. God says to give thanks for all things. (Yes, there is a verse that says “IN” all things, which is a whole lot easier, but there is also the one that says “FOR.” There’s not a loophole. If there was, I would have found it!) That thankfulness is not saying that we are glad it happened. It shouldn’t have happened to a dog. But thankfulness for all things is simply an acknowledgment of the sovereignty and goodness of God – that He IS good, and that He promises that, no matter HOW bad it is, that He will bring good out of it. Only God can do that, and believe it or not, if you will choose to thank Him for that painful situation, He will bring good out of EVEN that.

Genesis 50:20 is quite powerful. “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.” And guess what? This is true!!! No matter how horrible the thing is, if you will choose to thank God for it, you will see good eventually come out of it. And more than that, you will find the freedom that has eluded you before this time. I have. So much.

I mentioned forgiveness. And that is a necessary part, too. As well as blessing those who have cursed you. These are also vital pieces on the road to freedom. But that does not  mean that you have to hang out with those who have hurt you, and it doesn’t always relieve others from civil consequences. But the choice to forgive is so that YOU can get free. You let God deal with them, and take your hands off of taking vengeance. And that is a much more pleasant place to be. Bitterness and hatred only keep US in bondage. Often the one who hurt us doesn’t even care that we hate them or that they have hurt us. They will eventually reap what they sow. But so will we. If we sow hatred, we will eat the fruit of that as well. How much more freeing to sow forgiveness and kindness and mercy.

I want to leave you with a beautiful song that has ministered to me in my journey as I have asked how “can we move on?”  Broken by Chris Sligh


Babies Can Remember – Part 2


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Painful events that occur around the time of birth or even in the womb can leave a profound impact on the person, even if the events are not recalled consciously. It is rare, but not unheard of for people to actually remember these events consciously. Dr. David Chamberlain is a psychologist who addresses this in his book, “Babies Remember Birth.” His research on babies’ ability to remember pain was published in The Journal of Prenatal and Perinatal Psychology and Health. This is a fascinating piece that is well worth reading. http://www.cirp.org/library/psych/chamberlain/

Several years ago, my youngest daughter convinced me that there was indeed great validity to this concept of babies remembering. A video showing a newborn being resuscitated brought up a whole string of memories in my daughter, age 7 at the time, things that there was NO way she could have known. I wrote down what happened in an email that I had sent to Dr. Chamberlain. Here it is:

Sent: Monday, July 21, 2008 10:26 PM

Subject: daughter, age 7, remembers birth

Dear Dr. Chamberlain,

I am a childbirth educator and apprentice midwife with a fascination of pre- and perinatal psychology. I just finished your book today – The Mind of Your Newborn Baby. Absolutely amazing. But much of it simply affirmed what I already knew had to be true.

I was watching some birth videos this evening in preparation for tomorrow’s childbirth class, and my 7 year old daughter decided to come in the room with me and watch. I was watching Barbara Harper’s “Gentle Birth Choices,” and they showed a baby being suctioned with a DeeLee suction device. She asked me if that’s why she hates having things stuck in her throat (like the swab for a strep test.) I said that it could be. I don’t think that I ever told her that she had been suctioned. I had always told her that she was my good birth – finally a non-interventive birth with the support of a doula. But she also wasn’t breathing at first, and needed to be resuscitated.

Well, tonight I got the story from her perspective. Her perspective is very different from mine, though the facts are the same.  She started talking about it, and I recognized that I was hearing something very special. I wrote down some of it, and then got her brother to get the video camera to record her.

Here’s what I wrote down:

“I couldn’t breathe. I was still living, and my heart was beating. I had this, like, feeling that I wouldn’t survive.  Then, my eyes barely opened, and I could see you.  I was trying to open my eyes completely, but I couldn’t.  I tried as hard as I could to breathe and open my eyes, but I couldn’t. My mind went black.

I felt something around my face, and my throat started tingling. Then I just, like, woke up.

My eyes were burning because there was this light that was pure white.

I felt scared, like I was never going to see you again.

Did they give me a shot? Because… and then, I just felt something sharp and my whole body just tingled, like I got struck by lightning.”

I asked her if she remembered breastfeeding, and she said sure, she did. She remembers the comfort of it and that it made everything feel so much better.  She talked for a while on the video. It was amazing.  Like something out of your book. The clarity of her memories is staggering. And they are so accurate. She also remembers a dr saying she wasn’t going to survive. I never heard that. She describes vividly her heart rate!  She describes it slowing way down. She talks about how things were happening that worried her. She knew she was in trouble. This is all so amazing. I’ve told her a little of her story, but not very much about her not breathing. How would she know her heartbeat slowed way down?  Her story HAS to be what she remembers. It’s WAY too accurate for her to make up.

We talked a little about her fears, and I prayed for her. She relaxed and shuddered, and says that she feels a lot better now.

I am so amazed. I knew this was real from videos such as “What Babies Want” and others, and your book. It takes it to a whole new level to hear my own child remember things that HAVE to be real memories.

I look forward to studying more, and I hope to have the opportunity to meet you someday. I have done workshops ministering to women who have had traumatic birth experiences, and I have ministered to people individually about their own en utero or birth related issues.  I am excited to think about where God may be taking me in this field. There is so much more I want to learn!!!

I just had to share this with you.


Terri LaPoint – Alabama

Just a note: the video did not actually work. We thought we had it recorded but were never able to get it to replay. But the above is what I recorded in an email several years ago.

There are those who emphasize that nothing we do in birth or the prenatal period is without possible implications for the growing person. The baby who is newborn, and the baby who is not yet born, are people, aware and taking in everything.


The “primal period,” the period in the womb, birth, and the early weeks and months are crucial to the development of the person. Trauma and pain send messages of fear, that the world is a very scary place. But good experiences and nurturing from loving family send messages of love, trust, and security. And that is a good thing.

Babies in the Womb Can Remember


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Babies in the womb are capable of:

  • Communication
  • Intention
  • Memory
  • Feeling pain and terror.

They Are People.

There. That is the message I want to communicate to the world. I have written it on the whiteboard when I have shared my story. It is my “take-away” message that I want people to remember. When we know that, it will change the way we treat babies, in birth, in infancy, and in the womb. It will affect our beliefs about mothers as well. Babies in the womb are AMAZING, and mothers are wonderful. They are treasures to be treated with honor and respect. As long as we believe that babies in the womb are not really sentient beings, or that newborn infants aren’t having REAL experiences, do we really value them as people?

It was as recently as the early 1990’s that SURGERY, without any anesthesia, was done on newborns, even major surgery! The babies who are screaming as they flail naked under the french-fry warmer lamps in the birth room at the hospital are communicating real emotion. They want mama. Period. They don’t like being man-handled and treated roughly and separated from their mothers. Conversely, the baby that is born and put straight on mama’s chest is content, right where he belongs.

The babies INSIDE the womb are just as sentient. I have spoken of remembering events in my mother’s womb. And to some people, that seems “out there.” But it’s not. Long before I remembered, I had studied the science behind these memories.

There is a fascinating growing field of pre- and peri-natal psychology, which I have been researching now for more than a decade. There is a large body of empirical, provable data about the capabilities of babies in the womb, including memory and communication. Those earliest events have a profound influence on us for the rest of our lives. Many Christian counselors, like John and Paula Sanford, and Mamahug Barbara Stevens, have known and taught these principles for years. And the science backs it up. And then I have my memories. And I’m not the only one.

My next few blog posts will contain articles and research on this very topic. The information has been available for some time, but only a very few in limited circles have been aware of it. I am presenting it beginning here, now, for you. My hope is that it will change how we view the baby in the womb in our culture, and that we will acknowledge the very real effects of our actions on babies and expectant mothers. For recognition of the truth is the beginning of healing.

Here is the first article, from Dr. David Chamberlain. You will be seeing more of his work here.

Birth Freedom


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As the Founder of the Birth Freedom Network, I am sometimes asked why I believe what I do, and why I work so hard for freedom for women to choose where and with whom they birth (even at home, even with a midwife). One of the big questions is, “Shouldn’t we ensure that midwives meet certain standards?” with the implication being that state standards and state certification is the means to those standards.

My response is: who is better to ensure the standards – the government, or the mama who is birthing? I see women research all over the place to figure out which car seat or high chair they will use. Doctors don’t tend to be researched as much, because they have letters behind their name and a license. Yet it is under their watch that the c-section rate has risen to 1 out of 3 births, and rising. It is under the watch of those with the “standards” that the maternal mortality rate in the US has DOUBLED in the past 20 years, #47 now, and the infant mortality here puts us at #50 in the world stats.

MAMAS whose birth it is are capable of asking very astute questions and determining who THEY want to serve them. If they want a certification, there are tons of Certified Professional Midwives. There are other midwives who are well-qualified via apprenticeship and study. There are traditional midwives, and religious practitioners, and others who choose not to be CPMs or CNMs for whatever reason. There are excellent midwives of all kinds of different “brands” or philosophies, educated and trained under a vast myriad of methods. Mothers are intelligent enough and should be trusted to make those decisions for their birth and their babies. It is not up to the state or any organization to make those decisions for the mama.

It is much like homeschooling. To use the logic that I am sometimes asked, “Shouldn’t we ensure that homeschooling parents meet standard requirements, and have partnerships with the public schools? Shouldn’t we require testing of the parents and state approval of the curriculum?” NO!!!!!! We should allow parents to teach their children or send them to the school of their choice. The years have borne out that homeschooling is valid, and for MANY is a better, more thorough, educational choice. The same is true with homebirth.

Birth is a normal process of a woman’s biology, that is designed to work even without assistance. It doesn’t need to be regulated. Women need to have the freedom to choose where and with whom they birth. Period. Anything less is tyranny.